My wife is a good woman and we have a nine year old son that we both love. There is nothing seriously wrong in the relationship between my wife and me. Just that I had an affair with a beautiful and passionate young girl. Sex was something that my wife and I did not engage in that often even in the early years of our marriage. Perhaps twice a month. After the birth of our son, it slowly became less frequent till perhaps once a year or one time in 2 years.

Not that it was not enjoyable. I enjoy it with my wife but it was something we do without real passion. With my mistress, it was so different. Her passion turned me on and we both enjoyed ourselves so much. The trouble is that she does not want our relationship to remain as an affair. She wanted marriage and kept pushing me to divorce my wife.

When I finally broached the D subject to my wife, she kept silent for 20 minutes. I told her that she can have the house that we were staying in. I would fully settle the mortgage so she will not have to make any loan repayments after our D. She will also not have to get a job as I will pay more than enough each month for her expenses and those of our son including his education and music lessons.

After the prolonged silence, she said that she said that property and money is not what is important to her. She would agree to a D if I fulfilled 3 conditions:

1) Our son is not to know of the D until after it has happened.

2) For 1 month, I have to carry her to our room every night.

3) I have to remain in the room for 30 minutes after I have carried her up. I do not have to be besides her for the full 30 minutes but just 5 minutes. I could do anything I like in the room for the remaining 25 minutes and could even leave the house after the half an hour in the room was up.

If she had wanted to keep me away from my mistress every night for 1 month, that would have been difficult for me. Just 30 minutes each night is no problem so I agreed with her conditions and carried her each night.

As time went on it seemed that it was getting easier to carry her. The half hour with her was not unpleasant as we both did not start any argument. For five minutes each night she would hold my hand if I was sitting beside her or have her arm over me if I was lying beside her. The rest of the 25 minutes was mainly spent by her looking at me with  contented silence while I read a book or was on my notebook/hand phone.

During the third week, she thanked me every night saying that she has enjoyed the time we had together. I started to give her a good night kiss on her forehead or cheek each night.

With about 5 nights to go she started to fall asleep even before the 30 minutes were up. I did not leave after she fell asleep but remained for the full 30 minutes agreed. I watched her sleeping peacefully with a faint smile on her face.

Oh by the way, I forgot to mention that our son was happy with the closeness between my wife and I and to see me carrying her each night. Perhaps in him mind, his parents were "doing it"  during the 30 minutes we were together in our room 😨🤣

On the last night, she thanked me as soon as I carried her into the room and laid her on the bed. She said that she would treasure the memories of that one month for the rest of her life. I squeezed her hand a gave her a kiss on her lips instead of forehead or cheek (what I had been doing for the previous week).

She moaned. Not in pain or sadness but with joy and pleasure. Seeing her enjoy a simple peck on her lips, I kissed her again this time a lingerring kiss. Making her happy is so easy and it was a pleasure to give her that. Although it was not the tongue in mouth type of kiss, I found myself enjoying the lips to lips contact with her. Something we have not had for so long.

That last night, it was not me sitting beside her with her holding my hand. It was not me lying beside her with her arm on top of me.

I lay on top of her and held her. No we did not make love. I would not have minded but she seemed too tired or weak. Happy with me on top of her she tried her best to stay awake. Instead of falling asleep after between 15 to 20 minutes, she was awake for 40 minutes before sleep overtook her.

Even though I have spent more than the agreed 30 minutes I did not leave but remained in the room watching her. I did not go over to my mistress place that night. As I looked at my wife sleeping contentedly, I realized that like her I will always remember the month that I have spent carrying her. She looked so frail and weak and yet happy. Carrying her had become easier and easier not because I was getting used to it, but because she had been losing weight over the last 1 month. I also found that I was not looking forward to the D anymore. I knew that I would miss her after the D.

When we were courting I enjoyed looking at my at that time girlfriend. Now I felt the same happiness and ❤ as what I had felt back then.

I decided that tomorrow, I will surprise her with the news that I no longer wanted a D. So the next morning, I said, "Honey, I have something important to tell you. I no longer want a D" She did not answer. I move from the door of the room to beside the bed and repeated what I said. Still no answer or even a change of expression on her face. I bent over her, held her as I spoke with my mouth next to her ears. Still no response. I kissed her lips 👄 lightly. Those 👄 instead of being warm were cold. I shook her gently but she did not respond.

She had passed away during the night. I found out later that she had been struggling against cancer without letting me know. I felt bad that our relationship had deteriorated to the stage that she could not trust me to stand with her. Perhaps she thought that I would abandon her even quicker had I known that she had cancer.

The consolation that I have is that 3 persons have good MEMORIES OF THE WAY WE WERE. The last one month were good memories for my wife even though she did not get to enjoy those memories for long. Our son also have good memories of his mother. Never finding out that his parents were on the verge of D, he had good memories of their last month together. In his eyes, the relationship between his parents blossomed during that month. As for me, that month was also pleasant and will be part of my precious memories.

I will leave my mistress so that my son will not find out about what almost happened. If it had happened, he will not have precious memories but sad ones of the state his family has turned out. 

It is best that my son thinks that his parents had a good relationship.Especially the last one moth was not a show put on for his benefit. 

Was that last month a show? 

For my wife it was not. She really enjoyed it.

The first 2 weeks may have been a show for me. The latter 2 weeks were not. I definitely enjoyed the last week 

The memory of the last time I got to lie on top of my wife before she died is precious to me. I think that being in that position like in the early days of marriage was also something she was happy to have before she died 🦋

The adulterous affair robbed me of being able to say that my wife is the only woman I have slept with. 

However I am glad that I repented of the affair and the last person I lied on top of is my darling wife. I  hope she will be the last person I try to get on top of. Even though my wife has passed away I want to remain faithful to her. 🦋