We should not judge a book by it's cover.

When it comes to girls, I tend to judge them by their cover or rather their faces before I get to know them.

Due to all the rejection that I have experienced from childhood, I do not expect any girl to want me as a partner.

In order to avoid the pain of being rejected by a girl, I would rather not try to ask for their friendship but just admire them from a distance.

I like girls with sweet faces and have sweet smiles. I take this as an indication of their personality that they are friendly and will not pour scorn on me should I approach them.

Judging them intuitively by their faces and smiles without getting to actually know them is like judging a book by its cover. It is not fair to them.

But then it makes no difference. I just think that I will like them and dream of a relationship with them without taking any action to start a relationship. The insecurity I feel is too much for me to risk being rejected.

They are not 👫👬 I ❤️ but are just 👫👬 I think I can ❤️

The girls with sweet faces and smiles were like the pretty rainbows 🌈mentioned in the song "Give them all". Like the pretty 🌈in the song, they will not be there even if I try to chase them.

Like the song says, I am spinning round and round in hopeless dreams of romance ❤️. Dreams will never come to pass if I do not even dare to try be be friends.

So I wrapped up those dreams and gave them all to Jesus and expected to remain single all my life.

Then Jesus brought a girl into my life but I treated her as a sister rather than as a girl I ❤️.

A girl working in a company that I was auditing wanted to go to church.

She started going to the church that I attended. After church we would go have lunch and talk about things related to God.

She became a Christian and so became my sister in Christ.

Talking with her about God and answering her questions was not difficult.

I was comfortable talking with  her and the things we talked about diversified.

I became so comfortable talking with her that I started confiding in her and telling her about myself, my hopes and dreams.

This went on for years and I treated her as a sister I like and who is nice to be with.

I do not know how she felt about me. I just know that I enjoy her friendship and that she was the only girl I treated as a real friend and not just an acquaintance.

They say ❤️ is blind.

I was "blind" and did not see that I ❤️ her as someone that I would ❤️ to marry.

God is good.

He removed my blindness and made me realise that there is a girl that I ❤️ and not just think that I can ❤️.

The miracle is that she ❤️ me too!

So 👩‍⚕️K and me married.

👩‍⚕️ K is THE PERSON that I ❤️ the most.