Do not waste your time searching, but rather enjoy every moment you have. Perhaps what you are looking for does not deserve you, but you deserve something better than this, and here you are wasting your time on something that does not benefit you and is not good for you.

And if you think about yourself and say why am I looking for anything (crumbs or money), but everything will come to you at an appropriate time without getting tired, be patient my friend

Beautiful patience, and I am not telling you not to search, but when you search for something you do not find it, but when you work and do what is required of you, you will find everything that approaches you