Anxious Yet Planning Ahead

I (23F) just need to get this off my chest because if I do end up needing an abortion, it will have to be a secret. My period isn't technically late yet, but after a condom malfunction about 2 weeks ago all I can do is play the waiting game for about 12 more days until A) my period comes (which is regular) or B) a pregnancy test would be viable. The anxiety and stress I'm facing waiting for an answer either way right now is really tough. I'm also really struggling with symptom spotting (why do PMS and pregnancy symptoms have to be the same?!!?) Knowing myself emotionally, I'd much rather not have to have an abortion, but the sadness/guilt I'd feel has nothing on the absolute terror and regret I know I'd have having gone through with a pregnancy I never wanted. I have no doubt in my mind that abortion is the right choice for me. Having a game plan for funds, facilities near me, and reading experiences of SA (my preferred method) here have really helped me calm down a bit. Thankfully I live in a state where abortion rights are protected. So glad this community exists as well.